Lose Lose

My mind has been bouncing off the walls of my brain all week long. You know the feeling; you are compelled to be physically busy while your mind is arguing an issue, or trying to find a solution. We have had such an issue brewing for over a year now and it has come to fruition... If it wasn't so wrong it would almost be a relief! And I guess in some respects it is a relief having the unknown realized. But as I banter this back and forth in my brain (picture tennis), I see a player in white and a player in black. The dark is attacking while the white continues to deflect. What makes this match so unfair is that any shot counts for the man in black. No boundaries apply, no lines, no rules, no ethics. The dark gets continually bolder in his moves, lobs, slams and ultimately a kill shot. The bystanders seem to be listening to the dark player and as the game continues many move to cheer for him. They climb aboard the dark train and join the demolition. The player in white remains tight lipped, concentrating on deflecting the continual attacks.

Now the game is over. The player in black, with his dark cheering section seem to have won. The key word is 'seem'. The question I keep coming back to is, 'how does anyone win?' The player in white will go on to the next match not having learned anything about playing fairly. He won't know what he needs to improve about himself or his game. And the dark player? In my mind - he has tasted the wickedness of winning by deception, by cheating and by persuasion. It will spur him on to continue down his murky road making him more bold in his actions. He will continue to collect the weak... and take them down his clouded path. This is where my brain thinks of Darth Vader. I know - but it's how my brain works!

This path is a lose - lose there are no winners.

And then the replay begins again....each time I search for a different outcome. I do understand that Jesus will expose all in the end and I am not supposed to HAVE to know why....but..... I am wired with black and white wires; this gray matter is so upsetting ! But continuing on the electrical theme..:). I remain grounded in the Lord and I know that I know that I know......He WINS!